10/22/2009 weight 196.0lbs.
So today is officially two months and it dawns on me that I have yet to take my measurements and see where I am at size wise. So I took my measurements and I am shocked, simply shocked.
|Weight:||227.8 lbs||196.2 lbs|
So I wasn’t sure about my thigh because when we measured it on 8/22 we wrote down 26, but today I measured it and it was 29 at its widest point. That being the case I am going to use today as a starting point, but can you believe the change? I still have my old measurements somewhere and if I can get close I will be thrilled. I will find them and post what my measurement goals have always been as well.
So I am still amazed, so many people have told me how good I look but there is still that self doubt, that voice in my head that tells me that I am not good enough, I am overweight and unworthy. I am working on it though, working to teach myself to have a positive self image. I think that is the hardest part of being overweight. We build this negative self image over years as a way to guard ourselves, to berate ourselves before we let others do it for us. It is a way to build a wall that we refuse to let anyone beyond, a way to keep others out so that we don’t have to deal with our own issues. I have had the opportunity to build these walls tall and deep over and over. Today it is very hard to tear them down, but I am tearing them down one brick at a time. The beauty of the SlimXpress program is that positive feedback more quickly than just about any other program.
Okay its late it’s late, keep it real and have a great day.
Hang in there we can do this – goal for next Friday mid 180’s.